It’s been an interesting 14 months and easily the most mentally/emotionally challenging time of my life. I found myself kicked down a few rungs on the hierarchy of needs. In plain English, poor/impulsive financial decisions, led to a situation where shelter and food on the table became the top focus out of necessity.
It’s not a situation I expected to be in at 26, but at 27 in reflection on the past year I realize that counter-intuitively it was a gift. I would not have gone all-in at my place of employment and have been able to reap the rewards of a developed skillset had my back not been against the wall. And now that it no longer is against the wall, this sales skillset is now my means to create the life I want, including financing all my music goals i.e. both equipment and studio time. It’s through struggle and adversity that we learn about ourselves. It’s pushing through the pain as opposed to avoiding it that causes us to grow.
All the escapism, all the avoidance, all the blame on external things rather than taking full ownership and responsibility for my emotions and life conditions, it led me to ruin. Maybe that’s a bit over dramatic, I still have all my limbs and am in good health, but I guess rock bottom is relative to one’s own experiences.
If there is some wisdom that I can impart to the reader, it is seek the growth in the situation you are in. Find the positive. It can be tough at times. It can downright seem impossible. I KNOW though, TRULY know, that if you keep on pushing, the light at the end of the tunnel gets closer and eventually you get there. And fuck, is it ever worth it. Persistence in the face of adversity is THE ticket.