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Acceptance and Drugs.

  • August 28, 2014

This is a tricky one. I first really realized I had a problem with self-acceptance and self-judgement in 2011. At the core of many problems that can present themselves in the human psyche is a reluctance to accept, or pointed and deliberate rejection of reality, whether it be the reality of ourselves or our environment past/present. I had a friend tell me the other day that I need to read less and write more. I've been so focused on information intake that I have severely cut back on output. The thing is, the things I really want to talk about require demanding a vulnerability of myself that...

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Reflection – Fork in the Road

  • August 20, 2014

I have had to make some decisions in the past few weeks. I'll be turning 26 in a month... there is a fork in the road for me right now. I could go with what I perceive to be the safe route, which is get a full time sales job (I happen to enjoy sales and am good at it, and would stand to make a lot of money) and focus solely on the mastery of the sales process... or continue down my path and divide my energies between sales and music, with sales being my means of financing my musical pursuits. Things are getting more real for me now. It's moved past a dream and has been for a few years. But especially...

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First Isolation Tank Experience

  • May 21, 2014

Just got back and feel extremely relaxed. Centered is more so the word. It has been difficult to unwind while moving around on the road for work. Truth be told I’ve been on the go and in a different place every two weeks minimum since I got back from Austria on Feb 24th. The moving around, coupled with a tendency to slip into obsessive workaholism that was conditioned by my previous place of employment which regarded and conditioned the workers to regard leisure time as unnecessary, has had me perpetually wound up. I immediately see the isolation tank being part of my life for the designated...

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Social media thoughts

  • March 20, 2014

This raises some very very interesting points. I think all of us have at some point fallen into the narcissistic image crafting that the facebook platform enables. We aren't generally exposing our flaws and inadequacies aside from our own needs for attention/validation a lot of the time. Even with its potential for abuse and dependency, I personally love social media. I find being able to share interesting posts from the massive massive data store that the internet is, and reading content posts from other people, to be massively enriching and enjoyable. I think that when humility is applied...

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Stop outsourcing your self approval to religious powers

  • February 15, 2014

"I cant help but draw the parallels, you know, to religion. So religion you get tithed or whatever you have to pay 10% or whatever the fuck amount. So you’re paying for the church always. And then you look at the means they went to make sure everybody ascribed. Well, burning people at a stake when they didn’t believe, well that’s a pretty good way to ensure that you are going to get 10% of that persons money. And then making sure that they’re guilty, ALWAYS, 24 fucking 7, because you’ve made the urge to have sex, which is like the urge to eat, or to take a dump, its not gonna go away,...

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The Social Musician – Thoughts on musician recoil to the word “sales”

  • February 9, 2014

I've recently been listening to the CD baby podcast for independent musicians and it has really gotten me thinking about the non-music side of Smooth Sailing. When I was younger I thought that if I JUST made the best music that I could that I would be discovered because that bullshit idea had been programmed into my brain. Maybe for 1 in a billion you are just in the right place at the right time and you don't get fucked over by a major label, but for many musicians, the dream of music will remain just a dream. I don't want Smooth Sailing to be a dream. Which leads into social media...

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Commentary On Nye & Ham debate (CONFIRMATION BIAS IS BAD FOR YOUR MIND)

  • February 5, 2014

Bill Nye debates Evolution vs Creationism I just watched this thing and hit pause when I had to hammer something down on paper Using the time on this specific video which still has like 13-14 mins of pre-broadcast waiting screen in it. Pause @ 21.13 Oh fuck... the face palm begins... this is going to be a bumpy ride. At least he didn't deny all science which is actually progressive for a lot of creationists watching... but now creating the first gap (observational vs historical) which I can definitely see him leading to the denying of archeological and DNA validity. Saying we weren’t...

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A few white panels

  • January 17, 2014

About a month and a half ago a man jumped from a window in the apartment complex I live in There was apparently a loud crash that I didn’t hear, was either at the gym or asleep don’t remember. He landed on these windows above a cafe in the mall below There was a temporary garbage bag/plastic covering over them for a few weeks but now there are these white panels instead. It’s bizarre to look at, I see them everyday. A human being reached some point where he saw no other option. Who knows what was going through his mind, but when I see those panels everyday I see a monument of human...

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Taking down and re-recording Crashing Logic Album

  • January 15, 2014

So I've been thinking about this for a while, but I've decided I'm going to take down and the retrack all the vox for the Crashing Logic album release. The vox and a few other things that need to be touched up... honestly just too many things pop out at me now when I listen to the album. And honestly it's not like its sold a million copies or anything, so I can just casually re-release it. But I'm totally grateful for the experience of recording and releasing a first album, and I learned a fuckload from it There have been a few indications for me that I haven't been happy with it as it is, been...

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Allegory of the Cave

  • December 30, 2013

Allegory of the Cave December 30, 2013 at 1:47am Platos Allegory of the Cave. http://faculty.washington.edu/smcohen/320/cave.htm We don't know what we don't know, and what we think we know is (sometimes) our best attempt to put sensory information into words. Some descriptions may be more accurate than others, but each meaning and representation is subject to our own biases/conditioning. I have an image of what a car is in my head. The image that comes to mind may or may not be the same image that you have, but we have an implicit understanding that a car generally has 4 wheels, a windshield,...

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